Ryan and I make an effort to come together every morning over a cup of coffee and connect about any issues or concerns we may have, and then we proceed to pray before the busyness of the day begins. Let me stress the word try in that sentence – we have good intentions; however, they don’t always pan out (especially after the birth of our 8th child!) These sessions often include prayers of protection over family, patience and understanding in our marriage, and more often than not, numerous prayers beseeching the Lord for supreme wisdom in raising our two twelve year old boys #hardwork.
Lately both of us have commented about how these prayers have begun to feel rout and monotonous as we find ourselves repeatedly praying for the same requests. Ryan recently questioned whether the act of praying is more for our benefit rather than actually being for God - to feel like we are doing something to make a difference or to feel like we are somehow moving the hand of the Almighty in a powerful way to heal a sick loved one or mend a broken relationship because “God doesn’t really need our prayers, does He?" This is personal for both of us on many levels having each prayed for specific healing for a loved one in the past but not receiving the answer we were looking for. We were instead given an answer beyond our wildest comprehension or dreams which became a complete healing unlike anything we could have even requested in those intense moments of anguish.